Tuesday, September 30, 2008

My week as a prisoner of war

Deprived of food, sleep, time away, and support was what happened on my so called week of rest. I was humiliated by people I loved and trusted. I am only human and was expected to be super-human. We dealt with one crisis after another and when one would stop another would begin. There was no time to take care of myself. No time to just scream. No time to get away from the chaos. I felt alone and scared. I felt like a captive. There were two other woman who lived through this with me. Had they not been there, I would probably gone completely insane.
I have had to go in for a psychiatric evaluation when this was over, and found out that I was just traumatized which brought back prior trauma.
I wonder how long this will last before I feel like myself again.

Saturday, September 20, 2008


I am so stressed right now that I cannot think straight. I am leaving to teach leadership skills to person with mental illness and I feel completely unprepared. I have not finished my power points, finished washing laundry let alone pack, don't have all the supplies ready for my workshops and over all just feel overwhelmed. I just don't have enough hours in a day.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Work, Work, Work

It seems that I am busier than I anticipated with school. I have a speech today that I am feeling semi prepared for. I have pat of an essay due that I don't like the way it is going. I am struggling in algebra because the homework is taking too many hours to do. I don't know what to do about that. I am not understanding physics, at all. I don't understand all the formulas and when to use what and why we measure things in newton's. It is all so confusing.
On top of that my oldest child is sick and has been for over two weeks. I had to take time off my job yesterday and take him to the doctor and pharmacy, so this is making me have to work on Friday. It's not a huge problem, I just need more hours in my day.
Does anyone have a couple of hours to spare?